Apparently the fight over the pizza yesterday wasnt enough. Round 2 just happened. Needless to say I am not a happy girl right now.
I know the things my boyfriend says and asks are out of consideration and love. Such as, are you sure you dont want another drink? That is just being an attentive boyfriend. However to someone dieting, that is hanging a temptation in front of your face.
Yet he does not seem to get it. He is taking this so personally. I am not trying to stop him from anything he is eating or doing. He can make his own decisions regarding food and his lifestyle. I will make mine.
We have been through a lot in this relationship. In 8 yrs we have seen just about everything. And yet this is a completely new thing. I need him to be supportive and I want to do the things every couple does, but its hard when the person you are with is yet another constant obstacle in this battle.
It seems like all around me are challenges to face. Sometimes it gets tiring. Im not tired yet, but its hard. At work today for example, I found out the president doesnt want to buy bottled water anymore. sure he will buy pop and loads of junk food, but nope, not water which is cheaper than pop and a lot healthier. All around me, it seems like people are trying to deter my weight loss. I am fighting these battles left and right. I know the whole world is not against me, but right now it feels like every possible thing that could hurt my weight loss is being thrown at me and it is getting really old. This whole process has really wakened me up to how sad our society is. How it almost rewards fat people by providing fast food and unhealthy choices at every turn. I give credit to every person in this world who is trying to lose weight because man its hard and it takes a lot of of each and every person just to get through a day of eating healthy because there is so many things coming from every direction to throw you off track.
Its bad too because I was up .4 today and part of me was blaming it on the pizza and consequently my boyfriend. Yes I ate in moderation and I could just be retaining water since TOM will start soon, but I really wanted to blame it on him. I know its not his fault and he is trying his best to understand. Its just really difficult for me right now to get things through to him. I really dont know how else to make him understand what this is like.