Friday

I had some internet problems last night and then I had to do online traffic school, so I am finally getting around to posting my weigh in.

Well I weighed in yesterday at 163.2 so at least I was down .6. Sad that is all that I have lost for the week, and I am still up from where I was like 2 weeks ago.

I can tell that not as many people enjoy reading me when I complain about things like that, but the reality is, this isnt easy. Im not happy, I am discouraged, and I am getting almost angry that I am not losing these last 3 pounds. Normally I am a pretty positive person, but in this case about my own weight, I am not feeling so positive. I know I get lots of comments about not measuring everything by the scale. Trust me, I dont. I havent gone through all of this to only believe the scale is what shows your progress. However Ive been working my butt off for over 40 weeks and to sit here when Im working hard and not seeing results isnt fun and it does make me angry. I just cant help that. I also know that while I certainly look better than I did 40 pounds ago, I still dont like how I look and sitting here not losing anymore weight isnt helping anything.

Ok the whine- fest is over. I just had to get that all out there. I know that this isnt supposed to be easy and that actually getting to my goal weight doesnt mean that this is over. Sometimes though, you just need to bitch it all out, because sometimes, this sucks!

What is going on!?!

Grrr weighed in at 163.8 again. I was hoping this was just Monday's weight because I had eaten heavier foods this weekend, however days later, I shouldnt still be up if that is the culprit.

Yeah yeah yeah..I know it could be water weight or bloating. I know it could be anything. But I am disapointed. I was hoping to be back down again and closer to my goal. I havent done anything out of the ordinary these past few days. No extra tastes here and there. Im getting all my water. I missed my exercise on Monday, but I did exercise this evening (after my weigh in though).

I guess we will see on Friday.

Healthy You Challenge Week 19

Week 19 here for the HYC. Sitting at 163.8 which is only .2 up from where I was last week. Not happy about the gain that I reported yesterday, but at least for the challenge Im not that far up.

I exercised 3 times this week. I didnt get my usual workout in yesterday as I worked a horrible 12 hour day and had to go to the grocery store after work to stock up on healthy foods. By the time I came home, exercise was the not anywhere on my agenda for the evening. But 3 is not bad and I definitely enjoyed the bike ride that I wrote about yesterday. The plan this summer is to just keep working our way up to longer and longer rides. Hopefully by the time my boyfriend and I visit my parents in July, we will be up for a bike ride there. Last time I went bike riding in PA, I got one of the biggest workouts of my life. So many hills! We had a great time, but it was hard to do more than a few miles. I think this year we are up for the challenge!

The bike riding that I did in PA makes me think of a story that really shows that weight is not always an indicator of health. My parents and sister did this bike ride with me and my sister who has the eating disorder, struggled the entire way. I was probably around 200 pounds at the time but was exercising, and I happily pedaled my way through the hills while she was far behind us struggling. I probably had at least 100 pounds on her, yet was in better physical shape than her because she was starving herself and getting no nutrients. My parents were worried towards the end that she was going to have a heart attack. Imagine that...at young 20 something year old girl having a heart attack from a bike ride. Now Im not saying I was in the best health at 200 pounds, but I certainly wasnt going to keel over from a bike ride. And now almost 40 pounds less than that, I am feeling my weight loss even more and can tell I dont have that extra weight holding me back anymore.