First things first, I weighed in .8 up. but at 157.2, I'm not complaining. Even though I didnt really lose anything last month, I can say with certainty that I am seeing 159 and 158 less and less, and 156 and 157 a lot more.
I will admit that on Saturday, I was really really disapointed with my measurements. I didnt lose much and here are the results:
Right Arm: -.04
Left Arm: -.03
Right thigh: 0
Didnt lose much anywhere and what I did lose is pretty miniscule. It was hard to see. Despite the fact that for the last month I have worked out 3-4 times a week rather than 5, I still thought I would see better results than that. My arms are looking pretty good and I guess this explains why the upper half of me went down a size. Now if I could just get the lower half to match.
But its all ok. I dont know why I feel that way, but I do. I think I am really starting to look at the bigger picture. When I look at how far I have come this year, I definitely have made strides in focusing less on what the scale says and more on how I feel. I feel pretty great actually. Maybe its the increased exercise that has lifted my moods and made me more accepting of my body, but I dont actually hate it right now. I came to terms with my weight at this point a while back when I realized it was just a number and that I could still change my body without changing the number on the scale. While its been slow, I have felt the benefits of exercise more than just with measurements or the scale. I feel good and I feel like I am finally taking care of myself the way I should be. Its not a bad place to be.
Along with this, I can feel my focus start to change. Not that I am falling off the wagon, but I dont feel so focused on weight and food all the time. Things in my life are starting to change - my boyfriend and I are looking at houses and engagement rings (!!!!), and I realize that now that I have my weight under control and its become a part of my life, I can focus on other things that I want. Im thinking that perhaps maintenance is something I might be ready for. It would be nice to get some more food in, but at the same time Im afraid to move into that phase when I feel ok where Im at. We will see. These are just some random thoughts Im having. In any case, I dont mind where Im at and thats the first time in a long time that I can say that.