Some times I feel like I have to make choices that arent so easy. I am not talking about a choice between a cooke and an apple. Im talking more along the lines of - stay home and be able to eat your healthy meals and exercise, vs stay at your boyfriends house where you have little control over the meals and no exercise. Thats the choice I had to make this weekend. Its hard because I want both. I want to have a healthy lifestyle, but I also want to be able to stay at my boyfriends house without a fear of a gain.
I chose to stay at my boyfriends house, and as a result Im up 3 pounds. I dont necessarily regret my decision, but I wish there was a way to reconcile these two different worlds. Dont get me wrong, its not that my boyfriend and his house are totally unhealthy. However, by staying at his house I knew that I wouldnt be able to get my exercise in yesterday. I also knew that I would likely be eating foods that I dont normally eat. I went back and forth on Saturday -should I stay there or shouldnt I? We were planning on going to a Blackhawks game yesterday, so it made sense to just stay at his house. But I couldnt help but also realize that doing so would jeopordize the healthy routines I have for myself.
Thats why its hard. I want both things, and both things make me happy. I cant really change the fact that there isnt really any way for me to exercise (not to mention time since it was get up and go right to the game), but we also went out to breakfast and its something that he wanted, and we do enjoy doing. I dont go out all out and use it as a chance to eat whatever I want, I still stick to w hat I know is healthy, however just not having my typical sunday morning healthy breakfast and working out for half hour, apparently causes quite a gain. It makes me not want to do this and this is why I dont usually stay over at his place. Its just difficult because I dont like to make this choice. I am happy with him, so therefore I want to be with him. But Im not happy losing my routine and gaining weight.
so what to do? I dont know. I guess get over the fact that this is probably just a temporary gain, but its disapointing since I was at my lowest weight on Friday and now Im back up here again. I just cannot wait until we can finally live together and then I wont even have to worry about how to reconcile our two worlds.