Today I actually weighed in at the lowest weight I have since starting this whole thing - 156.6. The last time I weighed 156 was in November, and that was at 156.8, so Im pretty excited! Part of me thinks this is just a wierd fluke, but whatever it is, its nice to see. I hope its here to stay!
I really really appreciate all of the kind comments I got on my last post. It wasnt easy to post those pics, and I think I thought about taking them down like every 5 min after I did. But they needed to stay. While I agree that perhaps my body weight is where it needs to be, I wanted to post those pics so people could see that this isnt just about my weight. My weight may be where my body wants it to be, but theres still work to be done. I know Ill never have a perfect body, if such a thing exists, but I would like to feel more comfortable with it.
I really wish that I had taken a focus on exercise when I began this. I was losing weight so well in the beginning just changing my eating habits, that at the time, I didnt really see why exercise was necessary. Now I see how wrong I was. If I had focused on it like I am now, then perhaps I would be more toned rather than trying to do this after I have lost the weight.
But Ill keep at it, because I think a lot of what some people said is true - it may take a while for my skin to respond. And mostly, because exercise is just plain good for you. I love exercising, and even if this is how my body will ever look, its still a million times better than when I weighed 226. Sometimes I forget exactly what it feels like to have all that weight on, how clothes used to feel, and while I never want to feel that way again, I also dont want to forget. If I forget, then I feel like I dont really appreciate this. I may be a perfectionist, but I do appreciate my body as it is and what I have done for it with all this hard work.