Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Returning to Normal

Things in my life are returning to a semi-normal state. The large project I was working on the last several months ended, and now I dont have to work a 12 hour day every day which feels great! Unfortunately layoffs are still looming, so its hard to enjoy having less work because I am afraid it makes me look like I am not needed, so I have to try and stay busy and work later than Id want just so Im not a target. The stress of that alone is horrible, but at least for now, I still have a job.

Exercise is returning again in frequency too. I started the Jillian Micheals 30 day Shred which I am loving and feel that it gives a pretty good quick workout. I am glad that I have been keeping up with exercise as mcuh as I could over the last few months and at least my weight didnt go to all hell. I am on the higher end of the spectrum than Id want to be, mostly ranging from 158-160, but at least I can say that I maintained throughout all these months. It would have been easy to turn to food to cope with everything going on, but I was able to stick to healthy foods and exercise when it was possible. I cant really dwell on what I might weigh if I had been able to be diligent the last few months, but I was barely getting by emotionally and physically some days, so Im proud of what I was able to do. I feel like I went through some horrible battle and at least I came out alive. Too bad I have a wedding dress arriving in a few months and I wanted a thinner body ready for that, but hopefully this 30 day shred will help with that. Im surprised that doing that for the last 3 weeks has not caused me to drop any weigh. While I dont play into claims much, the case of the dvd does indicate that it can lead to up to a 20 pound weight loss. While I wouldnt expect 20 pounds (or really even want that), it would be nice to see SOME results. I could try and convince myself I am gaining muscle, but I dont really believe that is true. So you can see, Im still the clueless frustrated girl I always was!

Im sorry that I havent posted much the last few months. Im afraid it caused me to lose a lot of readers and its really too bad because I really enjoy reading the comments of my regular readers and the support they give. Ive tried to keep up with my google reader as much as possible and hopefully now I can get back into reading and posting more often.

9 comments:

Doug said...

hope the shred is good, glad to hear you arent completely off track or anything.

good luck :)

MB said...

I'm glad things are returning to semi-normal. I hope your employers will remember all the hard work you've been putting in all these months.

I wonder if all the stress is keeping you from seeing results. Maybe now that things aren't so crazy you'll start seeing results. Keep up the good work and the results will come.

metro15 said...

Glad to hear things have calmed down for you. I hear you on the stress of not having work though - my job is similar, feast or famine. I'm either worrying about how to get everything done or worrying about not having enough to do...

Anyway, I think a maintain is a great thing during a time like you've just had! So congrats on that. :)

Holly L. said...

Hello and welcome back to sanity (or at least a place closer to it). I can completely relate to all the work stress and I am very impressed with your new found coping mechanisms. I'm trying so hard to find some of my own. Good luck!

Carlos said...

glad your life is calming down and your workouts have gotten back on track...

Tony the Pink Panda said...

Man, work sounds like it sucks big time. I'm not particularly a huge fan of Jillian Michaels because I think she spews a lot of BS, but I have heard pretty good things about her workout DVDs.

Lyn said...

I agree with the stress possibly causing you not to lose. But remember how IMPORTANT it is to be able to maintain for long periods like you've done, especially with such stress.

Your readers are likely still around and will come right back when you feel like blogging more again!

I wish you the best as always :)

Lola said...

we are still here! and happy to see you are on track.

sybilizedliving.wordpress.com said...

Glad you're back and life is returning to normal, Heather!

Good job on keeping up with the exercise in spite of the crazy job schedule.

cheers-