So I knew why I was up on Monday, but today I am clueless. I am up .2 and while this isnt a large gain, I wasnt expecting to see a loss seeing as I was up so much on Monday. I really wish I knew what was going on. I havent been this high in a few weeks. My water and diet are in check, exercise is on track, so what gives? Its times like these are the most frustrating to me. If it was something I could control, I would feel much better about it.
Something I had wanted to write about was from last Friday. Last Friday while at a friends house, we happened to watch a video from New Years Eve in 2003. While I certainly expected that I would be overweight, I wasnt at my heaviest weight then and when I look back on that time, I dont remember really feeling fat. Well let me tell you, when I saw that video I was so shocked by how I looked. It wasnt at all how I remembered looking at that time, and it was hard to see. It definitely reminded me why I did this, and why I can never go back to that. There are still times where I worry that it will happen. While I feel that I have control over things the way that my life is now, I know that wont always be the case. I havent even been under/at my goal weight for a year yet. It does concern me that in the years to come things will just slip away. Not that I want that to happen, but its my fear and probably a fear of most people who have lost and maintained weight. This video is something that hopefully will remind me that I NEVER want to go back to that weight again.
But on the up side - it is pretty cool that I look better at 26 (almost 27 yrs old) than I did at 21. Most people usually wish to look how they did when they were younger and for once, Im glad that I am this age and look the way I do.