Well I am down .4 from Monday which is something. However I really thought I would be down much less and back in the 159s. I have eaten well all week so far, and exercised 2 days. I would think that alone would have moved me back down, but apparently not. I do still have some swelling and TOM, so Im just hoping its that.
I hate that I am feeling anxious because I am at 160. But its been a stressful week and day today. We have had clients in all week, specifically for a project that I am going to manage that is extremely high profile and sensitive, and just hearing about it has made me sick to my stomach. Add that to my insane workload and a vacation coming up (that I have no idea how everything will get done while I am gone), and you get MAJOR STRESS.
In the past, major stress has always led to stress eating. Now dont get me wrong, Im not about to head to the grocery store and buy all my binge foods. Nor did I eat the glazed donut staring at me in the kitchen at work yesterday. However, I keep getting flashes of myself going crazy, eating. I know its my body trying to go back to the stress reliever I used to have - food. That was how I coped and so its tempting me with visions of food.
The interesting thing is, I really have no desire to eat or for food. Yet that is what I keep seeing in my mind. It just goes to show, issues with food rarely go away. I may have lost the weight I wanted and gotten control over food, but that is still ingrained in me and I will have to fight it every time I am in situations like this. People should realize that when you lose the weight, the battle isnt over. I will probably always have a fight with food and emotions. Its hard, but somehow I will get through it.