Friday, February 22, 2008

Friday Weighin

Well I am down .8 from Wed, and I am sitting so very close to the 160s! .9 and I am officially in the 160s. Hopefully I can manage to lose that this weekend.

I have felt really tempted by foods lately. I am not really sure why. Today I went to the grocery store after work, and wanted to walk down the Easter candy aisle. I love cadbury eggs, especially those mini chocolate ones. I really really wanted to just buy a bag and sit here and eat it. However, I was smart and avoided the aisle and kept on shopping. Then I bought some more cheese as I rescheduled the jewelry party with my friend for next friday. I had to buy more cheese since we consumed it all during our cheese/crackers/wine/salami fest. Buying it reminded me of that night, and I desperately wanted to consume cheese and crackers.

I think I am just stressed out. Work is just super busy and I have been working late almost every night. TOM is coming on and I think that is what is bringing on the chocolate cravings. I am also kind of depressed that my weight loss has slowed. Nothing to be depressed about...I lost since Wed, but I was sad to see the scale still say 170. The loss from Wed didnt even really register for me.

I appreciate all the words left about exercise. I had posted previously that even though its an excuse, I really just have a hard time getting it in with my schedule. If I wake up any earlier in the morning, I will be getting like 4 hours of sleep, which is not enough to go on for 12 hours a day. I was actually looking in to the possibility of doing something during my lunch, however the way I have been working, I am lucky enough to sit down and eat in the lunchroom. Lately I have been sitting there at my desk eating while working just so I can get home a decent time. Decent meaning, 7. I have been getting home and eating dinner around 8. That leaves 2 hours before I go to bed. Sure, I could exercise in that time. And I know that is what everyone would say to me. But I cannot even describe to you how I feel at that point. Exhausted, barely awake, and yet still running around planning my meal for the next day and making my lunch, paying bills, etc. All to collapse in bed and do it again the next day. Its rough. Its no excuse. So many of you have children and more responsibilities and still fit it in. I know I could if I wanted to. And while I do, and have every intent to do that, by the time I get home, I could care less. As long as I ate on track for the day, I feel happy with myself. As I mentioned before, I really just wanted to focus on my eating until I met my goal and then concentrate on exercise. However, at the rate I am losing, I think that is not going to work.

Definitely will be getting some exercise in tomorrow morning though. Its a start!


Scale Junkie said...

I've been noticing food a lot more this week and feeling a lot of temptation. I was in the mall and cookies were calling to me, I resisted but an hour later even after I was home I still could smell them. Thats just wrong!

Just hang in there, your scale will go down soon.

Holly said...

I just read today that the week before TOM, you are burning up to an extra 300 cals per day! So indulge... but just a little! I understand about the not having time for working out and being exhausted at the end of the work day. I haven't been to the gym in two weeks since I started working time. Thank goodness this is a temporary work thing for me because it feels incredibly frustrating! Hopefully your work slows down a little bit so you can at least squeak in a little walk at lunch.

MB said...

You will be in the 160s even quicker with some exercise but I know how hard it is to fit it all in and I don't have kids either. Where do people find the time? It is possible to lose with diet alone but it takes so much longer and is harder to sustain.

I can't wait to see you reach your goal. Have a great weekend.

Merry said...

I know exactly that feeling: you've worked a 12-hour day and when you come home it's an enormous effort to do the barest minimum. Days like this, you should feel proud that you're eating healthy. Sometimes that's all you can do.

But if I might nag you the slightest bit? Gently? It's really important that your company appreciates that this is, to quote one manager I know, "a heroic effort" on your part and not standard expected behavior. Once this pressure-period is over with, you do get to relax and recuperate, right?

One company I worked for, I worked an 18 hour day and my manager thought I was being a hopeless wimp when I wanted to go home the next day a whole 2 hours early. (Mind you, she'd left at 5 pm the day before. Overtime was for peons.) It's not possible to stay healthy if your company doesn't have some respect for your personal boundaries.

Okay, no more nagging. You really are doing a great job.

Cherry Dolphin said...

How exciting to be THISCLOSE to 160s! You are doing great, and the food temptations will pass again. They come, but just remember they go. Just keep making good choices, but also allow yourself to indulge in a little treat now and then so you don't feel deprived. Keep up the wonderful work Heather, you are doing so GOOD! =)


40 by 40 said...

WOW--the 160's...I am so excited for you.Good for you for avoiding the EASTER aisle. You are so good at making the right choices and cosistently..which is another example of how you TRULY have changed your midset and this will not be a temporary loss for you..but a permanent one b/c you HAVE actually learned great habits. You are a continued source of inspiration. Can't wait to read your post when you hit the 160's.Hey, don't beat yourself up over exercise, you have been working so hard on the eating and mental aspects and will get the other stuff in when it's time. (and you'll masater that too! :)

Janey said...

Being close to the 160's is sooo cool!
You work really, really hard, long hours and I'm not surprised you don't feel like exercising at night. I don't think anyone would want to!
Good luck for your next weigh-in - hopefully you'll see the 160's!!!!!

Lyn said...

You're doing great! I am one of those moms (five kids) who fits in the exercise. It's kinda of a matter of just doing it (like Nike says). Pick a time... early morning, night, lunch... and just do it. Start out slowly so you don't burn out. I ride my recumbent exercise bike for 14 minutes, 3x a week while my toddler is napping. You'll feel so much better if you get on a schedule. Your body will thank you!

Lora said...

Just try to fit in exercise in little ways. Stairs instead of elevator. Park farther away. Do leg lifts while you're brushing your teeth. I know....we've all heard those things before but they truly do make a difference. A calorie burned is a calorie burned - no matter how you do it!

Trisaratops said...

I was working 10 and 11 hour days for a couple of weeks, and I missed my work outs and felt terrible about it. I think it is legitimate to feel to0 tired to exercise when you work that much. Are you expected to always keep up that pace? I would go crazy. Not to go Pollyanna on you, but exercise is a great stress reliever, so I would consider getting something in on the weekend. Even just walking with your boyfriend is good - I know, you're covered in snow, so I guess a gym is the only option? Shoot! Good luck this week! And congrats on skipping the chocolate eggs. Soon it will be summer and we can drink water and eat fruit all day!! Hang in there!

Bev said...

WTG on the loss! ; ) Good luck on the the exercise and fitting it in!!

Laura N said...

I think your work schedule IS an excuse not to exercise---and a good one! I'm not trying to be an enabler or anything here, but anybody with your schedule would find it ridiculous to fit in an hour long workout when you only have 2 free hours a day. Give yourself a break, chica. Will the workload get any easier or is this the way it always is? If it will get easier, then hold on until then and start working out then. If it's always like this, maybe it's time to look for a new job (?). Either way, don't be so tough on yourself. It takes time and energy to lose weight. Sounds like you are short on both right now. Just do the best you can! And enjoy the success you have had so far. You deserve to be treated well.