I feel a bit lost right now.
I went in for my weighin today and found out that LA Weight Loss is closing. As of Jan 4th, it will be no more anywhere.
I must admit, I am terrified. I have so many thoughts running through my mind. The biggest one of all, can I still do this on my own? Id like to think that I can. I have done this for 19 weeks and I know what I need to do to lose weight. But unfortunately in the past with WW, when i didnt have to weigh in in front of someone and there was less accountability and encouragement, I did worse and worse each week. Granted my WW experience was completely different from this experience...I am still fearful that everything I have worked hard for is going to slip away. I will miss the accountability and the friendly encouraging counselors.
Worse yet, while they are technically closing the 4th, as I am out of town for over a week and they are limiting their hours next week, I will just be going in on Friday and then next Wed. And that is it forever. I am not ready for that. I am not ready to walk away.
I am also pissed. Angry. Upset. Everything. First, I am worried I wont get my money back. Already people on the message boards are talking about how they will not issue refunds. I can apply for one, but I am worried I wont really get it. Fortunately, I had 30 boxes of the lites left and was able to take them all with me this evening. I also bought 4 more cases of the meal replacement shakes as well as the carb ender supplements I take. So I feel that I have the tools that have helped me and enough to last me through what was supposed to be my weight loss phase. I feel bad for those who cannot get the rest of their lites before they are gone and will lose out on those too.
I just feel that this so wrong. not only did I have these 24 weeks of maintenance, but I had 6 weeks of stabilization and then a YEAR of maintenance. I am losing out on all of that support. Stabilization is hard in itself because you are adding food back into your diet to see where you can stablize your weight. I am scared to do this on my own. I am scared without the support i will lose focus.
I know so many of you have done this on your own and it is possible. I know there is nothing magical about this program or the centers or the counselors. but all of it together has changed my life. until this point in time I had failed at every attempt to lose weight and here I am, doing so well. I am just worried I will fail now again.
Later on when I can think more calmly, I will put together a plan for myself. I will look at all of the tools I have and I will think of how I will use them. Right now, my emotions are completely ruling my brain. It is taking a lot of strength to not turn to food (how ironic, isnt it). But I guess the fact that I havent is proof that I have learned a lot from this program and I can continue this one my own. Its going to be hard and it may just all the more longer than it was supposed to, but I cant give up now.