Sunday, December 5, 2010

Slacker

Yes I have been slacking off again with this blog. I was SO ready to jump back into blogging but I guess my life hasnt really settled down much after the wedding as I thought it would. I was traveling for work, and then it was Thanksgiving, and so the story goes.

For a while there with the traveling, my weight was not going in the direction I wanted. I think I got back up to 147.8 and had a mild freak out because I havent been over 145 in months. But I calmed myself down and realized it was lack of exercise and proper food that was the cause, and I was glad to see I was back down to 145.8 this past week. Still a bit higher than I would like, but I had two Thanksgiving meals (one with family, one with friends), so after that I couldnt really expect to be back down to 144. Even with the 3 pound gain, it was messing with my mind. Suddenly I felt really fat and gross, and we went to a party last weekend where I felt like the fattest person in the room. Its not that I want to continue to lose any more weight - I think my fear is gaining weight and gaining it all back, even after 2 years of losing and maintaining. Even the littlest gain makes me worry. I hate feeling this way but I also feel like I need to be on top of this so that if I do see a gain, I find out why and what I can do so that it doesnt continue to be gain after gain. I am just worried about that feeling of helplessness of gains that I cant control. Yes even this long being away from 226 I still have these fears.

That is really all that is on my mind right now. Here are some profession
al wedding pics to enjoy:



6 comments:

New Mum Online said...

Stunning pictures...
Each time I lost a lot of weight I always put it back on, twice was a size 16 after being 12 all my life (UK sizes)... you are right to worry as people like my Mum... size 12 all her life and a 10 now... catch it in the early stages when it is a pound or 2. If you can mentally manage it you don't need to be neurotic. She doesn't weigh herself... simply cuts back on naughties if clothes feel tighter. Wearing clothes that don't expand with you is key. The invention of lycra was as bad as that of McDonalds...

Stop by to see my Santa Baby...

Oh and the good news is I am since August my pre-baby weight in pre-baby jeans....

Liska xxx

Lyn said...

Oh wow, you look gorgeous!! Just gorgeous. What lovely pictures. Congratulations and I do hope things slow down for you soon. Wishing you a VERY happy and healthy 2011!

American Homemaker said...

Hey slacker! You look gorgeous in your wedding pics! And I've been a slacker on my weight loss blog for about a year, but I'm back :)

New Mum Online said...

Hey Missy... where are you in 2011? hee hee... marital bliss?

I have given you an award:

http://newmumonline.blogspot.com/2011/01/i-have-been-awarded-stylish-blogger.html

Liska x

MB said...

Hi Heather, I've been thinking about you lately and thought I'd check in and say hello. How is the married life? Are you coming back to blogging soon. Miss you! Hope all is well and you are enjoying life as a "MRS."

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