Yes I am still in my depressive weight loss funk. I still dont really know what I want. I was down .4 today from Monday, but still up a pound from last week.
At this point I know its not exercise because I havent exercised in two days. Yesterday I went to a concert after work so I wasnt home to exercise, and tonight I got home just a few min ago and weighed myself, and by the time I make dinner and such, I wont get it in either. And the weight hasnt suddenly dropped down, so its not the exercise that was causing the stall.
Part of me cares, but another part doesnt. I dont want to let a weighin dictate how I feel about a particular week. Every day I do great things - I choose to eat healthy over junk food, I choose to exercise, etc. I dont know why I cant be content with that.
What do I think will happen when I reach 150? Probably nothing miraculous. It IS just a number and I know that. I think before when I met my goal at 160, I thought that I would look a lot better in some of my clothes at 150. Maybe weight loss is not the way to do it. Maybe its exercise. I dont know.
I guess I just need to get back down to the lowest weight I was at (156) and focus more on exercise. The reason I say 156 is because I would have some buffer room from 160, and because I know I can get there. I was there for a while and complained even then. Now Id give just about anything to be there again.
I think thats the biggest point I was trying to articulate - not that its frustrating to be in a plateau, but that Im stuck at a place I already was at. The problem isnt what Im eating or drinking (to those who asked, I dont eat processed foods so Im not eating anything with sugar, flour, HF corn syrup, etc., I dont drink pop or juice). Maybe Im not eating enough, maybe I need to eat more of something. I guess I need to figure that out.
So I think in the next few weeks while I am at this place of uncertainty, I just need to think about what Im eating, and what I want to focus on: exercise or weight loss.