Monday, March 17, 2008

Bittersweet

It figures..the day I hit 40 pounds lost is one of the worst days of my life.

Yes you heard me though, I made it to 40 pounds lost! I lost 1.6 since Friday and hit 40 pounds lost. Granted, some of it may be that I havent eaten in a few hours, but Im still there.

I am happy about it...but not happy that there is road construction that started on my commute that turned it into a 2 hour commute to and from work rather than the hour and 15 I normally endure. Not happy that I got home to find that the Illinois Department of Transportation says I was not paying any tolls for 2 months and has fined me over $1100. Even though I have an IPASS (which is a device in your car that pays your tolls) and it is working just fine. Not happy that my cell phone bill is almost $300 because I went over my minutes last month when I was having all those issues at work because of that project that got messed up. Not happy that this is my life. Not happy that last night I had no heat because there were issues in my apartment complex so I had to freeze all night.

For anyone who thinks losing weight solves all their problems..this is proof that it does not. My life still sucks, I am still unlucky. I have no money and yet need to shell out an insane amount of money.

Dont me wrong, I love that I made it to 40 pounds lost. That my hard work this weekend paid off. But I just dont really care at the moment.

19 comments:

Jan B said...

Congratulations on the loss! The rest pretty much sucks, but how much more it would suck to be not at 40 lbs and have all those problems. Fight that toll thing. Take care and try not to let it get you!!

Anonymous said...

Call the il dept of trans, they will remove the charges. Hopefully your heat is back on today, if not be grateful for that extra thick blanket. Cell phone bills ALWAYS make me upset-what a scam, ever get a HOME phone bill, now THAT is a total scam!

Really, the things you wrote here aren't the end of the world.

You can focus on the crap or focus on the positive, it's up to YOU.

Mary Thompson said...

40 pounds is a amazing amount! Great job. Im sorry about the other things. Losing weight is not going to make everything else in life fall into place too, that is just ridiculous. But I think it does make you feel better so all the other things arent so hard. Thats the idea at least. Haha. Anyway, congrats on the weight loss, sorry about the other things.

barbra brusk said...

cheer up, dear.
i bet it`s just bad little times, like we all have...

you ll be just fine (and already thin)...

MB said...

Congrats on the 40 lb. loss. I'm sorry life isn't letting you enjoy it. Just think how much better it is dealing with all of that without having to lug around an extra 40 lbs.

Hopefully the roller coaster of life is on the upswing now.

Holly said...

Awww sending you some hugs, Heather! I'm so happy for you on your loss but can understand why you're down about all the other crap. I hope some of the issues that came up can get fixed easily!!

Twix said...

:( I'm so sorry. Damn Illinois sux...I know I live here, lol. Hope you get your heat back soon!

and HEY....

CONGRATULATIONS on the 40lbs LOST!! AMAZING! HIGH FIVE!!! :D

Hanlie said...

Well done on reaching 40 pounds! You are a rockstar!

You can of course appeal your fine!

Shannon said...

First off, congratulations on the 40 lbs! That is a HUGE accomplishment. And look! You are less then 8 lbs away from your goal.

I think that it is great that you pointed out that losing weight does not solve all of your problems. I think so many of us are blinded by that thought.

I am sorry you had such a sucky day and I hope that things are going better for you now.

Be sure and take time to celebrate those 40 lbs gone!

Teale said...

In the same manner that we choose what we put into our bodies, we also choose when we celebrate victories or mope in defeat when something bad happens. I know that right now these things are a big deal to you, but the bigger deal should be this huge milestone you've accomplished. Don't let these kinks ruin the celebration you so deserve. Obviously if you have a working IPASS your $1100 can be disputed, and trust me, I know $300 phone bills all too well... but these things aren't the end of the world and you need to choose to not allow them to put a dark cloud over your great victory of 40 pounds!

Poonie said...

Chin up hon, I'm sorry you've had such a crappy run of bad luck lately. But hey, 40 POUNDS LOST!!! That is awesome.

I hope the other stuff gets worked out soon.

Hugs!

B said...

Aww it's OK. Just take one issue at a time and everything won't seem as overwhelming. I'm sure the department of transportation will take off the charges (if not, call your state representative - I work in a state rep's office and get calls like that all the time).

And way to go on your loss!

Manuela said...

What crummy luck. I'm sure you won't have to pay that bill. Bureaucratic red tape can be a nightmare but hang in there!

Congrats on the 40 pounds gone--that must make you feel great at least!

Laura N said...

Yay on the 40. But holy cow, that's a lot of crap to deal with. Hang in there.

Chubby Chick said...

Awww... I'm so sorry that you had such a bad day! Life really can suck at times... no matter what our weight. Hang in there. I'm sure everything will work out. :)

And congrats on reaching the 40 lb. mark! That is absolutely fantastic! :)

HappyBlogChick said...

What a stressful time - I'm sorry you're going through that. Try to keep your chin up - the good thing is that although everything you listed is a pain, none of it will last forever or be fatal. (Even if it might feel that way right now.)

Take a moment out to be happy about the weight loss! GOOD JOB! You deserve to celebrate your success - don't short yourself on that.

Cherry Dolphin said...

Sorry to hear about all the crappy news - but congrats on reaching 40 lbs - that is AWESOME!!!

Trisaratops said...

Arrgh! That's rough. I hate money troubles. But 40 pounds!!! You are amazing - congratulations!!! I'm so excited for you.

Lillian said...

I don't have one of those pass things. I pay the toll the old fashion way throwing coins into the slot. Now, the toll road near me is charging a dollar so I hand it to the clerk.