Well I am up over 2 pounds since Friday so I am not too thrilled at that...currently 177.6 and last week I was at 175.2. However, I know the culprit is gyros. I had gyros last night for dinner, and while a perfectly acceptable on plan meal, I know that the saltiness combined with TOM days away made for the 2 pound gain. At least I know this and so I feel indifferent about the gain. I used to get really freaked out whenever I would see a gain, but I really am starting to notice patterns in my body and know that certain foods do make me show a gain the next day on the scale.
The christmas party was an ok time. And yes, some may wonder why there is a xmas party in January. The reason my boyfriend's company does it in Jan vs Dec. is that most people are running around like crazy in December and have a lot of other commitments that they wait until the holiday rush is over, and then all get together. I actually think its kind of nice, and my company does the same thing as well. Anyways, for all I was hyped up and nervous about going and wearing the right thing, I went there and it wasnt even a big deal. I think I looked fine with what I ended up wearing, and most of the "pretty" girls didnt even come by and talk to me or my boyfriend. I was looking at one of the girls and she just had so much makeup on and was completely overdone and while she looked very pretty, I just said to myself, she is just a person too. She isnt anything special and I dont know why I torture myself before these things trying to impress someone like that. Either this is a sign that my self esteem is finally starting to improve, or that I really just dont care anymore. Either way, it was almost a sigh of relief. It was interesting that not as many people were as friendly to me this year. Last year everyone was talking to me and this year that didnt really happen. I wonder if to some of these women, I am now considered a "threat" because Im not hugely overweight anymore. Or like I had mentioned in another post, now people are not sure how to view me because I was always the "fat but nice" girlfriend and now I dont look like that person at all. But Im still nice!
Tonight there is a show on MTV about overweight people who like being overweight. Im pretty sure I will get pissed off at some point during this show, but I plan on watching it. It should be an interesting show to say the least.