That wasnt a very creative title, but I am not in the creative mood right now! However, I am happy that I lost 1.2 since Friday and am now sitting at 173.6!! Very exciting. I have 3 pounds to lose to be at 40 pounds lost, and Im only 13 pounds away from my goal! I am so happy that I am nearing the end. At first I was kind of afraid that the end would just appear and I wouldnt be ready..but each week that passes by, I do feel more ready.
I know everyone wants to lose weight really fast, but honestly, I think its almost better this way. Not only because theres more time to make this lifestyle a habit, but also because I have been able to really work out a lot of the emotional aspects of why I became overweight. I feel like I have really been able to make great progress on the things I list in my sidebar. Namely, the fact that I dont beat myself up if I have an off day. I used to get so angry at myself, when all I had to blame is myself. Now, I understand that I will make mistakes, but there is not point in sitting here worrying about them and continuing them for days afterwards.
I went out to dinner at Fridays on Saturday with my boyfriend and ordered a cheeseburger, cut it in half, and ate only one half. That is huge for me because in the past, I would have eaten the whole thing and been sooo full and sooo mad at myself. I ate half that burger and not only did it fill me up, but I wasnt stuffed. My boyfriend sat there after eating chicken wings, a rack of ribs, shrimp, my fries, his fries, and 4 mojitos. He sat there physically in pain and I just thought, how is that worth it? How has he even enjoyed himself? Why does he need that much food in order to feel fulfilled and happy with his meal? Not to mention why he wants to give himself an early heart attack (however I am jealous that he can weigh so little after eating all that crap). In any case, I felt really good about myself that I was able to do what I did. I know the fact that I controlled what I was eating contributed to my loss and that is why I am successful this time around. In the past, I used the weekend as a "Cheat" day. well all I was ever cheating was myself. Whatever I gained from that cheat, I spent all week trying to lose before my weigh, and then I would continue the cycle. Now I dont believe in cheat days..I believe in being able to eat whatever you want, in moderation. Theres no reason to cheat when you can have the food you want in any given day, as long as you can moderate what you are eating, and fill yourself up with the things you body needs.