Monday, January 28, 2008

Monday

That wasnt a very creative title, but I am not in the creative mood right now! However, I am happy that I lost 1.2 since Friday and am now sitting at 173.6!! Very exciting. I have 3 pounds to lose to be at 40 pounds lost, and Im only 13 pounds away from my goal! I am so happy that I am nearing the end. At first I was kind of afraid that the end would just appear and I wouldnt be ready..but each week that passes by, I do feel more ready.

I know everyone wants to lose weight really fast, but honestly, I think its almost better this way. Not only because theres more time to make this lifestyle a habit, but also because I have been able to really work out a lot of the emotional aspects of why I became overweight. I feel like I have really been able to make great progress on the things I list in my sidebar. Namely, the fact that I dont beat myself up if I have an off day. I used to get so angry at myself, when all I had to blame is myself. Now, I understand that I will make mistakes, but there is not point in sitting here worrying about them and continuing them for days afterwards.

I went out to dinner at Fridays on Saturday with my boyfriend and ordered a cheeseburger, cut it in half, and ate only one half. That is huge for me because in the past, I would have eaten the whole thing and been sooo full and sooo mad at myself. I ate half that burger and not only did it fill me up, but I wasnt stuffed. My boyfriend sat there after eating chicken wings, a rack of ribs, shrimp, my fries, his fries, and 4 mojitos. He sat there physically in pain and I just thought, how is that worth it? How has he even enjoyed himself? Why does he need that much food in order to feel fulfilled and happy with his meal? Not to mention why he wants to give himself an early heart attack (however I am jealous that he can weigh so little after eating all that crap). In any case, I felt really good about myself that I was able to do what I did. I know the fact that I controlled what I was eating contributed to my loss and that is why I am successful this time around. In the past, I used the weekend as a "Cheat" day. well all I was ever cheating was myself. Whatever I gained from that cheat, I spent all week trying to lose before my weigh, and then I would continue the cycle. Now I dont believe in cheat days..I believe in being able to eat whatever you want, in moderation. Theres no reason to cheat when you can have the food you want in any given day, as long as you can moderate what you are eating, and fill yourself up with the things you body needs.

12 comments:

Janet said...

Way to go on your progress! And doubly way to go on eating only half the cheeseburger. I havn't developed that sort of will power yet.

Mary said...

You are doing so well! Great job! I was laughing at the part about your boyfriend and all the food he ate. Guys always seem to overdo it, and I just don't get it. Good job eating only half your cheeseburger! With the crazy portion sizes at restaurants that was probably a correct size. :) Keep going!

Scale Junkie said...

My husband is one of those eat anything and never gain but honestly, he rarely over eats and he typically makes healthier choices. He is a good influence (except for tonight when he wanted cheesecake factory cheesecake and I told him to get some but I didn't want any)

You are so close to the 160's!!! You are right about cheat meals, you only cheat yourself and prolong your journey to goal and maintenance.

Cherry Dolphin said...

Congrats at your loss! I am so excited for you, being so close to goal! And kudos for the will power - and my husband also can eat anything and everything he wants and still be 135 lbs (he's 5'10" - the man is SKINNNNNNNY!)

*ccc* said...

Oh yay yay yay! That is wonderful and I'm so glad your effort is paying off on the scale. To be so close to goal, sigh.... :)

Had to chuckle at your recounting how your BF eats and eats and eats and then sits there in pain--my DH is exactly like that! He just stuffs himself and then is just moaning and groaning in pain the rest of the night. I do not get it...is it enjoyable? Heck, even when I wasn't watching what I ate I rarely made myself sick like that with the quantity.

But another good for you on handling that cheeseburger situation...you got to enjoy a little something you wanted, and did it responsibly.

KUDOS FOR SURE!

40 by 40 said...

Wow--again your self control has blown me away. Nice job on eating 1/2 the cheese burger!! and feeling full!! Wow! Also, how very exciting that you qare 13 lbs from goal! Soon, you will be in the SINGLE DIGITS away from goal. I can't imagine..but I hope to/will see one day. Enjoy it all..you have worked hard..and will keep working hard.

belly said...

yay for you, sweet pea! isn't it the MOST AWESOME feeling to be able to go out to a restaurant, be served an extravagant portion, eat only what you need, and still be totally cool with leaving the rest?

so proud of you:)

lifeshouldbestereo said...

Wohoo! That's fantastic. Well done on your achievements, that's wonderful.
I know what you mean about control, esp. when going out at restaurants. I am just learning that now and it's fascinating.
My partner is also the kind that can eat pretty much anything, and he always finishes his plate, no matter how full he already feels! But then again his food choices are usually quite healthy.
Well done girl.

Hanlie said...

Well done on the loss! You are getting so close.

I really admire your attitude towards this. You're doing great!

Laura N said...

Fabulous job!

Holly said...

Wow you are almost there!! Congratulations! Good for you for having the will power when you ate out. That's great!

Bev said...

You are doing great! You are almost in the 160's now. ; ) Keep it up!! We are shrinking together.