Yes I am back and currently weigh 181.2 so that means I have gained 2 pounds. Could be worse. I honestly wasnt sure what to expect. Plus, TOM is days away.
Now dont get me wrong, I didnt overdo myself, but I definitely ate a lot of things that I shouldnt have. Namely xmas cookies, and soup. I havent had soup in the longest time and my mom made it one night and I definitely indulged. It was delicious, but probably not worth the 2 pounds. So yes, I am back in the 180s unfortunately.
I did have a wonderful time in PA seeing my family. However a few bad habits popped up. First, I didnt journal a single day that I was there. While I can certainly remember what I needed to be eating, I didnt write anything down and I know this did not help me at all. I also had a lot of "bites" of things, which probably led to much of this 2 pound gain. I also skimped on the water a lot of the days, and didnt always get in my 3 serv of fruits or 3 serv of vegetables.
However I did do a lot of things right, which was eat in moderation, and make the best choices I could under the circumstances. There were a few times when we were on the road to Penn State for my sister's graduation that I didnt really have a choice in where we would go to eat or what was available to me. But I still tried to do the best that I could with what was available and ate in moderation if nothing was.
A few non scale victories were first, when I was 179, I realized for the first time I actually weighed LESS than my drivers license said! That has not happened in a very very long time. I also had some pictures taken of me and was actually happy with the way that I looked in them. I didnt think I looked like a disgusting fat pig like I usually feel about myself this time of the year. I also went shopping and went into Express because my sister was looking at a pair of pants in there. I saw a cute shirt but thought, ok this is Express, I definitely wont fit in it. I grabbed a large and tried it on, and it fit and was adorable! I am glad I can start to buy things in nonplus size stores. For so long I have been limited in where I could go to shop that it feels nice to go into any store and know I can find a top. Pants we are still working on!
But in all reality, as much as I hate to see the 180s again, I know that to have gained 2 pounds is not the very worst, and I actually DID make it through the holidays without gaining much weight at all. This will be one of the first years in a while that I can say that. That I didnt fall into the trap I usually do every year that says "you can eat whatever you want, its the holidays". I gave in to some indulgences, but ignored most others that I didnt really want. I wont look back on these pictures and think I look disgusting.
I hope you all faired as well this holiday season!