Yes my friends, that weight on Monday was indeed TOM and the gyros because today I weighed in at 188.6!!! Back in the 180s baby!!
So in a week, that brings me to 1.4 pounds lost and I am soooo close to being at 20 pounds lost. Its hard to believe a week ago I was sitting at 190 and couldnt wait to be in the 180s and here I am.
The past week brought some challenges. Halloween candy being the biggest. I gave in more times than I would care to admit, but honestly I can say that a lot of the candy just doesnt taste as good as I remember. Probably because the last time I ate anything like reeses pieces, etc. I was eating to comfort something in myself. I can honestly look back and say that everything tasted so wonderful because it was filling some void in me. I really think somehow, whether I just have gained more control and confidence, or just want this bad enough, but I really dont feel that urge anymore to just eat because Im having a shitty day. I also had a hard time at the jewelry party on sunday where there was nothing healthy and my friend said "oh no, not a brownie" sarcastically when I moaned about eating it. An example of how a lot of people do not get what I am doing and trying to do with my life.
However, this week I have gotten a lot of compliments on my weight! One woman at my work asked me what I was doing. A friend told me that she could tell I have lost weight. My boyfriend said that the jeans I was wearing a few weeks ago that were slighly tight now are loose.
I really feel like my life is changing. In just a few pounds I will be entering a new territory of weight and its hard to imagine how I will look and feel because its been so long since I have been there. Part of me is nervous, simply because for years now my weight has been a shield, an excuse, a burden. To think of all that gone, while amazing, is a little scary.
But Im not going to reflect on that now, only the fact that I lost again this week!