Yesterday I went in to get weighed and there was a counselor there who I hadnt seen since the start of the program. So really, she knows nothing about me and what I have been doing and going through for the last 12 weeks.
So we head over to the scale and I lost another .4 so that was awesome. Brought me to an even 191. As I get off the scale, rather than saying, great job!, she says, well lets get you back up to that 2 pound average a week.
I almost stopped dead in my tracks. And do you know what I said (in a sickly sweet voice)? I said, "actually I am really quite happy with the progress I am making. It doesnt concern me to be losing 2 a week".
Wow, I amazed even myself! That is NOT the self conscious intimidated girl I was a few weeks ago. This girl has had no clue what I have been eating or the challenges I have through. She was treating me like every other customer who would need the same advice. But I am not the same as everyone else. I am doing whats right for me.
So she says, well lets look at your food diary and see what we can do. I smiled because I know that I eat dead on. So shes looking and I could tell that she couldnt find anything. Finally she said, well you had 2 string cheeses today for your dairy. Do you like yogurt, that is better. I said, well I had yogurt yesterday, and today I had a taste for cheese. It is completly acceptable on this plan and rather than deny myself what I felt like eating to make YOU happy, I ate something that made me happy.
I dont think she liked that! Then in a monotone voice she said, well keep up the good work. And I left.
Now I realize I wont have a good relationship with all counselors there. Usually I get my favorite 2: Katie who is the manager and who has been with me since the start of this. She was the one who helped me the day I came in there, desperate, and needing help. Danielle is one that I wrote about who had lost tons of weight on this program. We are around the same age and just completely get each other.
They dont treat me like just another customer. They realize what I like and dont like. They realize that I do the best I can do and sometimes only lose .5. They realize I dont want to use their supplements,etc. because I want to do this the right way and because my sister used laxatives and other drugs to feed her eating disorder. They realize that I have been through a lot to lose this weight.
I am just really proud that I stood up for myself and for my choices. That I could honestly say, I dont care Im not losing 2 pounds! and really mean it!